They're really trying to trick us, girls

I read excessively. We all know this. Up now: The Beautiful Series. There's six of them in the series and I've already read the first two. Well, technically number 1 and number 1.5 (Beautiful Bastard and Beautiful Bitch- which I read online...oops). They were the story of Chloe and Bennett. {By the way- How sexy is the name Bennett? I never really thought about it, because I know people with the last name Bennett, but when it's a first name- sexy.} I really liked it and decided to give the rest of the series a try.

These books aren't "great classic literature" and they don't try to be. They are what they are. Entertaining. Funny. Sexy. And a way to lose a few hours. Trust me on that one. I started reading the third book- Beautiful Stranger- last night. It revolves around Sarah and Max. And of course all of these characters are entwined in all of these books. It's actually pretty cool. I might actually like their story better than the Chloe/Bennett one, but that's debatable. The ones left are- Beautiful Bombshell, Beautiful Player, and Beautiful Beginning. I think that I just like books in series, because I tend to read them a lot. After all, we all remember how much I loved- FSOG, when I read it this past August. When I finished with the first I immediately went online to find the second, and ordered the series off of Amazon. What did we all do before Amazon? Have to go into public
and have to associate with people? Over-rated! I personally will stay to myself, thank you very much.

The whole point of this is that I realized last night- men are NOT like this. They just aren't. In no way, shape or form. And if there are guys out there that are like the ones in books/movies I have yet to meet them and get proven wrong. I know that this is all my fault. I have literally read my way through my life and have let the words of Bronte and Austen to help me romanticize what I think that guys should be like. I'm sorry for that. I'm really not, but it sounded good. I have this idea of what I want in my life, and after the last couple of horrible (have I ever had a good one, really?) relationships (if that's really what you want to call them) that I've participated in, I'm in no hurry to find and/or fall into another. Is that so bad? I don't think so. I rather enjoy having my "me" time and doing exactly what I want, when I want, and not having to "check in" with someone. Maybe I have just managed to spoil myself. Who knows?

I don't have a lot to say on this subject, well...I do, but let's face it- I'm not feeling up to "par(?)" today, so I just wanted to keep this short and simple. I love this new series that I am reading. I will be finishing the third book (once I get to reading something I keep going until I exhaust myself) tonight after work (before/after The Following- I can't help but to read spoilers- of course), and then probably (immediately) start the 4th/2nd, 2.5th/3.5th?- whatevs. The point is I read these and I think to myself- Wouldn't it be great if all guys were like Max Stella? Or Fitzwilliam Darcy? Jamie Fraser? Julian Kane? Adrian Kane? Bennett Ryan? Heathcliff? Gilbert Blythe? Edward Rochester? Simon Parker? Jay Gatsby? Hell, maybe we all even want a little....Christian Grey. Who knows?

I think every girl/woman thinks about things like this, and we all have some silly idea in our head. We want a guy that is strong, protective, firm and relentless, but also caring, sweet, gentle, and loving. We want to butt heads and still be able to laugh it off. We want to be protected, but not smothered. Tell us what to do? Yes, but don't be an ass about it and really don't expect us to listen. Chuckle and play argue about how hard headed you both are. Bad boy? Yes, but only if he has redeeming qualities.

We all basically want the same things, and I may be breaking some sort of "girl code" that I don't know about by saying this, but it's the truth. We all want to be loved, cared for, challenged, cuddled up to, be the only person that a guy thinks about or runs to, cradled, but not babied. We want guys to give us an adorable/sexy nickname, and I may be speaking just on my behalf, but I hate being called- baby. So it doesn't count. ROMANCE. We want passion and excitement, but we also want to just be able to keep things casual. WE WANT TO LAUGH. We want to feel sexy, even if that's the furthest from what we are. But one of the biggest things that we want- we want "the look". Every girl knows that look. The look that a guy gives you without even realizing that he's doing it. The look that everyone can see. The look of true adoration and love, like she is the most beautiful woman in the entire world, and put all of that love into one look. Yes, all of us girls know about it, and we want it. We even talk about it to our girlfriends. Seriously, when were completely alone and with our best friends we discuss "the look". We do. We admit all of this to each other, but not to anyone else. It's kind of one of our things. We're (most of us) actually really easy to please. It just takes a little adjustment, and if you think the girl is worth it, then you'll both do it.

Why is that? Why should we be ashamed of what we want? It has been ingrained into our heads since we were little girls about princes and fairy tales, but then when that's what we want out of life we're condemned for it? We get called spoiled, or bratty, or even bitches. Why? Because we want and expect the fairytale. I'd like to believe that some girls get that. The eternal optimist/hopeless romantic in me would like to believe that some people find that one person that is completely right for them in every way, and that they get their fairytale. I'd like to believe that there is a happily ever after. WE WANT TO BE WANTED. Simple. Easy. Will it ever happen for me? Will I find that one person that is so right for me that I fall head over heels? Probably not. Not being a pessimist, just being a realist. I'm just saying. I don't think that it will ever happen for me personally, but I'd still like to believe that it does in fact happen. After all, isn't that why we read and daydream about romances in the first place? Personally, I always catch myself daydreaming.