2019 films. (Part III).

I started a tradition back at the end of 2016 suggesting all of my favorite films that I would recommend that I had viewed throughout the year. This evolved into three consecutive lists in 2017, two in 2018, and after falling off the wagon with it a bit, a catch up for 2018 and 2019 of sorts detailing the movies that I viewed (spanning four months at a time), which ones were my favorites, and the ones I would steer clear of again.

I figured I would keep that tradition going, because I'm looking for anything and everything to keep my mind busy and my anxiety at a minimum. Rambling tends to do that and even though it doesn't help in the long run, it helps in short spurts. 

Catch up from 2016.
Catch up from 2017: Part I, Part II, Part III.

Catch up from 2018: Part I, Part II.
Catch up from 2018/2019: Part I, Part II.

October's films: El Camino, Stuber, Crawl, House of the Witch.

My favorite: This is gonna sound crazy, but I had a hard time choosing between two movies. One was hilarious (Stuber) and the other was a horror flick (HOTW). But, since I need to choose one I'm going with.... Stuber. This film had D and I rolling and I've been telling everyone to give it a go. Least favorite of the month: Sadly, my least favorite was between two movies as well. Don't get me wrong, they were both alright, but not something that I would watch more than once. Between the two, my least favorite was probably.... El Camino. I know, I know. It got rave reviews and everyone was so excited to see more Jesse Pinkman (including me), but there was just something about it that didn't seem.... I don't know. It just wasn't as great as what I had hoped. Maybe my expectations were just too high.

October's rewatched from years gone by: Hot Tub Time Machine, Hot Tub Time Machine 2, Terminator: Genisys.

November's films: Hobbs & Shaw, Gods of Egypt, Fifty Shades of Grey, Fifty Shades Darker, Fifty Shades Freed, Takers, Scorpion King: Book of Souls, In Darkness, Angel Has Fallen, Carriers, Skiptrace.

My favorite: My Thanksgiving "holiday" was pretty productive in the fact that not only did I get stuff around the house done, but I also binge-watched some movies. The Friday after Thanksgiving D had to work, but came home sick, so I watched a few without him and continued on through the weekend. With that being said, I think my favorite was.... a tie between Angel Has Fallen and Takers. Momma told me how awesome Takers was long ago, and when I finally watched it, I said out loud how right she was. And, honestly, I will watch as many of these Mike Banning (aka Gerard Butler) movies that they make. Least favorite of the month: My least favorite would have to be.... the Fifty Shades of Grey trilogy. They weren't terrible, but they just played real weird and seriously rushed. And I guess that's because of how the books play out? But, it just felt real weird for a film.

November's rewatched from years gone by: Mike and Dave Need Wedding Dates, About Time, Passengers, IT(2017), Club Dread, Little Nicky, Cold Mountain, Troy, Hit & Run.

December's films: End of Watch, Keeping Up with the Joneses, Logan Lucky, Ready Or Not, 10 Minutes Gone, 47 Meters Down: Uncaged, Mermaid: Lake of the Dead, The Kitchen, Scary Stories To Tell In The Dark, Anna, Jacob's Ladder(2019), Rambo: Last Blood, Die Hard, Species, Sausage Party.

My favorite: I watched a lot of good movies this month, so it's kind of hard to pick a "favorite." I often do this to myself and somehow never learn my lesson? In all fairness though, sometimes you just watch a movie not knowing what to expect. For some reason, even though I watched all of these amazing movies, my favorite was.... Ready or Not. There was just something about that movie, and the fact that the main lady takes absolutely NO SHIT. While I'm a little worried, because I also need to plan a wedding this year, I feel like this movie understands me in a real sick and twisted kind of way. Least favorite of the month: My least favorite would have to be.... Mermaid: Lake of the Dead. I'm usually a sucker for low budget and/or foreign flicks, but this one just didn't do it for me. Was it terrible? No. Would I seek it out to watch it again? Also no.

December's rewatched from years gone by: Four Brothers, Baywatch(2017), 21 & Over, Mission Impossible: Fallout, Mike & Dave Need Wedding Dates, RED, RED 2, The Meg, The Dark Knight, Riddick.

Tv series I've finished: The Night Shift (S3-4), Sons of Anarchy (S1-7), The Vampire Diaries (S4), Hawaii Five-0 (S1-2), Grey's Anatomy (S1), V Wars (S1), Keeping up with the Kardashians (S1-5),  New Girl (S1-2), Vikings (S2).

Stand-up I've finished: Katt Williams: The Pimp Chronicles Part I, Katt Williams: Kattpacalypse.

Audiobooks that I've given a try (some I finished, some not so much): 3,096 Days in Captivity (Natascha Kampusch), The Nightingale (Kristin Hannah), The Boy Who Sneaks in my Bedroom Window (Kirsty Moseley).

I was not ready to come back to work after 5.5 days off.

Have you ever had a bunch of days off of work, but it also feels like you didn't get any rest and need more days off? That's where I'm at today. Not that I'm not glad to be back at work, but it just doesn't feel like I've been gone all that long.

I blame the fact that it's this time of year. It's the week between Christmas and New Years, so everything is off and honestly, I don't think anyone really knows what's happening or what day it is.

Like I said, Christmas was hard this year and I have certainly not been in the best spirits lately. I know I should be trying harder, but I'm trying as hard as what I can force myself to.... and basically that's enough to make me pull myself through the days. Luckily though, I can seem to make myself clean my house, shower regularly, and cook now, so at least that's something.

Also, Dani got these little trees for our Company Christmas Party this year and I ended up taking two of them home (we give out all decorations at the end of the party every year) and I've switched them from "holiday" pots that they came in to regular pots and I'm going to try and keep them alive as my new houseplants. I've heard that having houseplants can be therapeutic? And while I don't know if that's true or not, I figured it was worth a shot.

After we dropped D's dad off at the airport Saturday morning I actually had a fairly productive day. I couldn't get back to sleep once we got home (even though lord knows I tried like hell), so I called and cancelled our cable (something I've been trying to accomplish for a damn month.... they made it harder than it had to be) since we only need the internet (we do streaming with Hulu Live and Netflix), I ran a couple of errands (aka, picked up cleaning supplies), got rid of the Christmas tree/put stuff away, deep cleaned our house, and got caught up on laundry. It was a thoroughly exhausting day, but I felt much better once it was all done. I even cooked dinner that night!

Yesterday I cleaned up (I try to at least spot clean the house everyday) and spent the rest of the day drinking wine, making jerky, snuggling with my pups, making jerky, and watching Vikings.

I got D a meat slicer and dehydrator for Christmas and we decided that we would experiment with some different kinds. Between us and my brother I think we came up with somewhere around seven different flavors, and out of those seven, I only dislike three of them. The best kinds (in my opinion) are D's invention that we call Dale's Crushed Red Pepper and my invention that I have named Desperado (because it's a play on a carne asada/mexican jerky). They're just so damn good. We prepped some more last night for me to start when I get home from work today and I think my brother's might turn out to be delicious (it's a bbq). At some point, I'm also going to try and dehydrate some of my own fruit. We shall see how this goes.

So yeah, that's where I'm at this week. Basically, all over the place and confused, but just trying to pull through (and I'm off again on Wednesday, because New Years). Also, that show Vikings? Addicting.

I met my other FIL this week.... and all of our pups approved. 🤣

Earlier this month, I met D's step-dad Dennis when he flew into Indy for work.

This week, I (re)met his actual dad. I originally had met him when we were sixteen, but only for around ten minutes and neither of us remembered the other very well. Mostly because, hello it was for ten minutes over a decade ago.

But, his dad flew in on Christmas Eve and while we were supposed to pick him up around 3:30, he didn't land until 6:30. Did you know that if you actively vomit on an airplane, even if you're in the bathroom, that they can/will throw you off of it? If you didn't, you do now, because that's what happened to him.

The poor guy was sick the entire time he was here and I felt terrible for him. I felt bad for D too, because he had made a bunch of plans for when his dad came up, but they all had to be cancelled, because everytime his dad moved, he puked.

Even though he was sick, D was so excited for him to come visit and I know he misses his family, so it was really nice for him to have his dad around for a few days. We took him back to the airport at 4:00 this morning, and he made it home safe and sound (and vomit free) and we'll be seeing him again in March (when we take vacation and go see his family in FL).

Also, all of our pups couldn't get enough of having him around and they all loved him.

I made Christmas dinner a day late and it just had to go down like that.

I’d be lying if I said Christmas wasn’t hard this year. In fact, it was really hard. Just like the rest of this year. I couldn’t even bring myself to cook Christmas dinner and instead made it the day after. But, I’m trying, and I have people that are trying to help. And you know what? That’s all I can ask for. ❤️ In the words of Riddick, there are bad days, and then there are legendary bad days. It’s always the punch you don’t see coming that puts you down, but.... it’s not about how you fall down, it’s about how you get back up. So, here we are. Here I am. ❤️

Falalalalalalala..... ugh.

Y'all, it's officially two days until Christmas, and tomorrow we pick D's dad up at the airport. As most people know, I'm not exactly in the "holly jolly" spirit, but the new side of that is apparently I have more anxiety about it than I originally thought and I legitimately have these big red knots all over my face and neck (they feel/look like something between a hive and a zit) and they're extremely painful.

But, I'm just trying to pull through and get this dealt with.... by cleaning the house like nobody's business, wrapping presents (except I'm lazy, so some of them are just in a random box surrounded by actually wrapped presents), drinking copious amounts of wine and liquor, and watching Andrew Conn videos on Youtube. Why? Because the dude never fails to crack me up.

So yeah, that's where I'm at with the holiday season. Covered in painful hives, dreading all things merry and bright, and stressing over the fact that I still have a shit ton of cleaning to do before we pick up D's dad tomorrow. See people, this is why they invented alcohol. I'm convinced the first guy that made wine did it by accident and was just amazed at it's calming capabilities and knew that with the right amount, he could conquer.... or at the very least get by.

Christmas is almost here. 2019 is almost over. And here I shakingly stand.

Today is our Company Christmas Party and Dani and I have decided that we are going to try and embrace Christmas this year, because with Christmas comes the end of this ridiculous f*cking year that we would all like to forget.

It's been a rough one, to say the least. After losing Momma (and her losing her dad), not to mention the other people that we've lost this year, it's just been a real hard year for us all. Luckily, Dani is almost as cynical as me, so we tend to have the same dark sense of humor and can reflect on things in the same way.

We're having our party at the brewery down the street from the shop (the same place we had it last year) and I was in charge of setting up catering, so if it's f*cked up, it's on me. Which, whatevs, we'll deal with it and if it doesn't work, I'll just go buy a bunch of pizzas or something. But, after today there's the weekend and then I only work 1.5 days next week and I'm OFF FOR FIVE.

I have to pick up D's dad from the airport on Christmas Eve, and he'll be spending the week with us. My brother, the baby, and his girl will also be there on Christmas Eve and my brother will be at our house for a bit on Christmas day, so that should be nice. I'm somewhere between wanting to be completely alone and having a house full of people, so I think it will be nice.... probably. We're at least going to try and do it semi-right.

D and I have to go this weekend to pick up a couple more Christmas gifts (I did the majority of our/my Christmas shopping online this year, because laziness), and our turkey.... maybe I'll even pick up a small ham and some stuff to bake cookies.

You see, Christmas was Momma's favorite holiday. So every year, we did a big tree, decorated inside and out, made a big dinner, and baked up a storm. Seriously we made candies and cookies out the wazoo. But, without her, this year just hasn't been the same. I haven't been in the "holly jolly" spirit and it's almost like I don't even see the point of this time of year anymore. D had to practically force me to even get a tree (with minimal decorations) and I did all of my shopping online and way later than I should have pushed it. So far, I've done no baking and while I'm trying to force myself to try, I'd be lying if I said it wasn't extremely hard. And there are still days I don't know if I can do it.

In fact, this year has been the hardest thing that I've ever dealt with in my entire life combined. And not to sound dramatic, but I've been through some shit.

But, here I stand, trying. I've been trying. I'm mostly struggling.... and I think on some level, possibly even failing. But trying.

I finally had to replace this old guy (aka, our 73 gallon water heater). 🚿

Our water heater has gone out twice this year, and with what I've spent on repairs, I could have bought a brand new one. So, when it went out on Sunday morning, that's exactly what I did.

Did you know that if you buy your water heater at Lowe's you can schedule them to come and deliver/install it for you? (For a fee, of course). Which, was music to my ears, because we have a gas water heater and honestly when it comes to home improvement things like that, I would rather let a professional handle it. I don't mind doing most things myself around the house, but when it comes to major stuff (ie: water heater, electricity, window installation), I try to steer clear.

Therefore, in the last month, we've had our bathroom window replaced, electric in the kitchen fixed, and a new water heater put in. Tis the season, I guess? Oh, and by the way, our old water heater was 73 gallons (wtf?), but I had it replaced with a 40 gallon, because for the most part, it's just me a D at the house.

It was rough not having hot water for two full days, but luckily, I am schooled in the whole having to heat water up on the stove to take a bath and washing my hair with cold water. #Childhood

Now I just have to wait for it all to get here. (Christmas shopping). 🎄

As most people know, I'm not exactly in the "holly jolly" spirit this year. In fact, I'm never in the holiday spirit, but always celebrated and and did everything I could for the occasion, as Christmas was Momma's favorite. It seemed like far less of a hassle then than it does now. Now, I just want to pretend it's not happening and use my "holidays" off of work to do absolutely nothing at my house.

But, D talked me into a tree (albeit a small/barely decorated one), and with my family, and the fact that his dad is flying up, I figured I should probably get a few presents and make dinner. I didn't do, order, or plan anything big this year. Just some small things and a couple of presents. Although, for some reason I still spent more money than I wanted to?

We were going to take D's dad to see the Newfields Winter Light Show, but I of course forgot to book the tickets and by the time I remembered, the only slot available was at 8:00pm on Christmas night.... so, maybe next year.

I was also extremely lazy this year, as in I didn't shop for one single gift at the actual store. I ordered all of my presents online. (In fact, I put in my very last order this morning). Why? Because the introverted 87 year old man inside of me (aka, my entire personality) didn't want to have to deal with trying to find everybody something at the store and run around like crazy. So, between Amazon and Walmart.com, I think I have it handled.... as long as it all gets here on time like it's supposed to.

For D's side of the family, I sent all of our nephews a set of walkie talkies, with the exception of the baby.... he got a stuffed dragon with his name on it. The adults, his mom/stepdad, sister/brother-in-law, brother/sister-in-law, all got butcher block cutting boards that were personalized. His mom/stepdad's have their names and anniversary carved into it, as well as his sister/brother-in-law. His brother/sister-in-law were a bit more difficult as they're not technically married, but between them they have three boys, so it has their names and all their kids names. And yeah, I accidentally sent his sister's to the wrong address, but apparently she knows the people that bought their old house so that's handled? Also, I ordered his dad a blanket, because even though he's coming up here, I didn't want him left out.

For my side of the family, I got a little something for Dani (and I'll make little treat bags for the guys at work), my brother, nephew, sister-in-law, Aunt Poot, and Uncle D. And of course, for D (who is getting more presents from me than anyone). I think my brother assumes that I'm going to get all of them a bunch of presents (like I said, Momma always did it up big), but he's wrong. All of them (with the exception of D) got two presents apiece from us. It's nothing big, but it's something.

I couldn't figure out what I wanted to get D this year, but once I started thinking about it, I decided on a few things that he had mentioned over the last couple of months. As well as ordering my pups their Christmas stockings, because they're my babies and need presents too.

So now, we wait.... and hope all of this shit gets to our house on time to get wrapped and given out on Christmas (maybe Christmas Eve?). Who knows at this point, maybe it will be 1/2 and 1/2.

It's not just "this time" of the year, it's every single day. ❤️

Momma used to paint all the time (before she got sick and lost partial control of her hands). I remember being a kid and just watching her be creative and wishing that I had some buried talent deep down that had yet to emerge.... while that talent never reared its head for me, I was always fascinated with any and everything she did. I used to have many things that she painted, but over the years (and many moves and bad situations) we lost most of it. Today, Aunt Poot gave me one of the two saw blades that Momma painted many years ago that she had. As soon as I walked in my house, it had to go up on my wall, above my bed. ❤️ 

This weekend was full of.... nothing but also a couple of things?!?

Y'all, once again the weekend went by far too fast and here we are just hoping to make it through until the next one. It's perfectly acceptable to just wallow in the fact that our next days off are five days away, right?

If not, there are no f*cks given and I want to be chilling with my pups and watching Netflix. But, we'll agree to disagree (even though I'm right) and we'll continue on with what these people are calling adulthood.

Even though I don't sleep late when I'm off (insomnia, party of one), I like having the option of not putting on pants and doing the things. I can have my fan going, curled up under a blanket with my (fur)babies, taking shots of fireball and chugging wine, watching whatever in the hell I want on the tv without hearing exasperated sighs in the background.

In fact, D had to work on Saturday, so what did I do? Well, I was of course awake before his alarm even went off, so once he had left I cleaned the house, finished laundry (I've been trying to keep up on the whole keeping the house clean thing, I thought it might help some of my anxiety), poured myself some drinks (yes, I drank alcohol on Saturday morning), and commenced to watching Keeping up with the Kardashians on tv. Sometimes, you just need some trash tv in your life. Besides, it was the old episodes when Khloe/Lamar were still together, so they needed to be watched (by me). Not to mention, if you're day drinking, the Kardashians are where it's at.

Then, I poured myself some more drinks (are you sensing a trend here?) and finished binge-watching V Wars on Netflix. If y'all haven't seen that one yet, I highly suggest that you watch it.

(The electricians were supposed to come on Saturday to check out our kitchen/living room, but they called and rescheduled for tomorrow.... it's frustrating.)

Saturday was also Soso's "sweet 16" and we had been invited a couple months back. Personally, I didn't really want to get out (you know me and my wanting to be home 24/7), but she stopped by that morning and asked me in person if I would come and I was like fine. So, D and I went for a little bit (about an hour) and then we left and ran by the video store. I like going into the actual video store, because it reminds me of my childhood (aka, I'm old as shit) and he and I commenced to watching two movies that night and the rest the next day.... because Sunday are for rest. (Aside from me cleaning, running to the store to pick up pup food, and cooking dinner).

And, from the first movie we watched, we learned our new code word for when we need to extract ourselves from situations.... CAUL-I-FLOWER. So, all in all, I just want to go back to hibernating in my dark little fortress.

I finally sent out the Christmas cards and I didn't even want to?!?

Every year I send out Christmas cards to a few friends and family members. This year, I sent out more than ever, because I included more of my family and of course, D's family. Don't ask me why I thought to do this, because I am most definitely not in the holiday spirit, but cards are one of those things I've done forever and I guess I felt obligated to continue to do?

This year though, I actually made our own. Mostly, I found a free sight on the internet, uploaded a picture that D's stepdad took, and went from there, but I thought they were pretty cute. You know, besides the picture where I clearly look like a chunky little iguana hobo that needs to get her shit together.

I ended up sending out about twenty-five cards this year (I mailed them out on my lunch break today!), and while they're later than they usually are (I usually have them sent out by the end of November), at least they're out there and people know I'm not a total waste of space and think about them. Or, something like that.

Our new bathroom window is officially installed.... now, onto the electrician.

Our bathroom window (which is weird, because it's located in our shower, but we need it, because we don't have an exhaust fan in there) has been broken for about a year and a half. We were gonna have it replaced a while back, but do you know how f*cking expensive windows are? Yeah.

But, they finally came and got it replaced.... and now we just have to get our electricity checked out.

Our outlets in the kitchen have been out for some time and we've basically been running our lives with extension cords (yeah, I know), but then when we picked up D's stepdad the other night, we came home and discovered that two outlets in our living room had stopped working as well. And sure, when we took him back to his hotel and came home they were working again, but that only made me more nervous.

So, I called an electrician that night (they're open 24/7) and we have a guy coming out on Saturday. Hopefully, *fingers crossed* it's a fairly easy fix and once that's done the "major" things that needed to happen at the house are complete. (Aside from the yard work that needs done and the garage that needs fixed.... it's good for now).

I finally met one of my FIL's and had a great time.

D's stepdad had to fly into Indy for work and we actually got to pick him up and spend a few hours with him. I had never met him before (I've only ever met his dad one time and that's when we were sixteen for about two minutes), but assumed he would be awesome, since D thinks so highly of him.

I was right, he is awesome. We got to pick him up around 7:30 at night (from the place his company was having a gathering) and took him back to his hotel later on (we didn't get home until after midnight!). You should have seen me driving on the highway with limited vision, no sense of direction, and a lead foot.... it was fairly comical.

Not to mention, our pups seemed to thoroughly enjoy having their grandpa/a new face around to visit for a bit.

We wish he could have stayed longer and that D's mom could have come with him, but we at least got to have dinner with him (D cooked ribs and I made mashed taters/gravy and green beans) and hang out for a few hours. Even though we had absolutely zero light in our living room.... another story for another day.

We can't wait to see them all again and will still be heading down in March to see his entire family.

I was not ready to come back to work after four and a half days off.

My Thanksgiving "holiday" was pretty productive in the fact that not only did I get stuff around the house done, but I also binge-watched some movies and Hawaii Five-0. The Friday after Thanksgiving D had to work, but came home sick, so I watched a few without him and continued on through the weekend.

Thursday: I actually made Thanksgiving dinner for me and D all by myself. D was there for moral support, but I did all of the cooking. I had never cooked a turkey on my own (I wanted to do turkey breast, but D insisted we have a legit turkey, so we got a small one so us and our pups could eat), but I used a lot of butter and random spices, and roasted it in our oven for about three hours and damn. I'm not trying to brag or anything, but that shit was delicious. I don't know if it's a thing or not, but our turkey was literally falling off the bone and f*cking delicious. Between that and the sides I made, we were pretty stuffed. Also, D has declared that I am to make the turkey every year from now until eternity.

Friday: Greg came home for the weekend as this is his week to be at our house, but D and him had to work so it was just me and the pups chilling at the house. I has to run to the store to pick up my mortgage payment and some dog food.... completely forgetting the fact that it was "Black Friday." Ugh. I hate people with a fiery passion, but luckily I avoided too much headache and picked up some stuff that we needed (and a couple of things that I wanted). Nothing big, just little odds and ends. Then I grabbed a burger on my way home and commenced to watching movies with my pups. D came home sick (and no, it wasn't from my cooking, assholes) and while I planned on cleaning my house and tackling that back bedroom, I didn't do it and instead we just watched tv and cuddled with the pups all day.

Saturday: I reluctantly got my house clean and situated. Not that back bedroom, but the rest of the house was good to go. D was laid up on the couch still sick, so I didn't want to bother him and cleaned around him. It's amazing to me how messy two people (part-time three) and three pups can be. No worries though, I got it all done and now there's only spot cleaning and the usual (sweeping, dishes after meals, etc.) to do on the daily. I was going to do more, but decided I was "on vacation" and once again, watched movies with D and cuddled the pups instead.

Sunday: I FINALLY cleaned that back bedroom and got the heaping mound of laundry that has been taunting me started. While the back bedroom is still cluttered (it's kind of our guest/catch all room), it's an organized clutter and you can actually walk in it/use the bed. Which is nice considering that D's dad will be staying with us for four days towards the end of the month. While I still have a mountain of laundry to complete, which I have to do this evening, the fact that my entire house is clean makes me feel much better. I also may have drank a bit of alcohol to kickstart my urge to tackle that back bedroom and by the time D woke up I was pretty.... tipsy. (Stop judging me, I do what I want!) Luckily, he was feeling much better and he took me to the store (yes, again.... I had to get Tayder food, drinks, and pick up the stuff for the dinner we're making his stepdad). When we got home, we put the stuff away and then, guess what? Didn't do shit else. In fact, while we were watching tv with the pups, I actually fell asleep and took a nap. Now, I watch a ton of tv (#noregrets), but I NEVER nap. When I woke up just a little bit later, D was cooking supper, so I showered and did supper dishes and then just hung out for the rest of the evening. I did a little cleaning, but nothing too drastic.

And now, it's Monday morning and not only am I back at work, but this is going to be a busy week for us. D's stepdad is flying into Indy tomorrow for business, so in the evening we're going to pick him up and bring him back to our house to cook him dinner. Then on Wednesday, they are finally coming to replace our bathroom window. They were supposed to do it in November, but I had to push it back for work, and the only day they had available was 12/4. Which is good, because at least it's before "hard" winter sets in. Oh, and Saturday is apparently Solae's Sweet 16, and I know I have to go and make an appearance, but I'm not sure how long we'll stay, because you know me and people.

On my list: try to start managing what I'm going to get people for Christmas this year. I'm not going to do much, but there are a few people I need to get things for, so.... we'll see how that goes. I'm not a bit excited for Christmas this year, any holidays actually, but D is persistent and forever trying to help me get through the rough patches that seem to entomb my life. I even let him get a tiny tree (that sets on our side table in the living room) for Christmas. It's a small step, but I'm trying.

So yeah, we'll see how this week plays out.... can we be back on home vacation again?